some sort of misunderstanding, perhaps?

i wish
i wish
i wish
i wish
i wish...

my days have been filled with laughter, abandon, excitement, thoughtfulness, and hope. i've been dog-piled on the soccer field. i've played games with random people. i've been watching 24 with a great group of addicts. i've lost a good-natured bet. i've laughed...a lot. i've played with fire. i've made plans for a future yet to be seen. i've gotten to know several people i didn't notice before. i've been driving my own car. i've been convicted time after time. i've had deep conversations and trivial ones.

i've been confident. i've been loving. i've been encouraging. i've (dare i say it?) been myself.

then WHAT do i wish?

i'm tired of this longing feeling that is literally choking me. if i'm so happy, so content...what is this desire that has such a strong grip on my heart? i feel a little like giving up. at what exactly, i'm not sure. life in general, perhaps?

what a ridiculous idea.

since i am one of those who has "seen a great Light"...what more could i possibly need?